Facing Imperfection

BY: T. Franklin Murphy |December 2017 (revised 2020)

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Running headlong into our imperfections is frightening. We realize how dependent we are on others. Along with imperfection we must accept vulnerability.

We artfully hide imperfections. We hide them from others and hide them from ourselves. We have learned that some environments don't graciously accept our stumblings. By exposing weaknesses, we diminished security. Our protective defenses, typically formed in childhood, were necessary at one point; but now outlive their usefulness, interfering with relationships and development. The protective practice of hiding imperfections only limits growth. We may find limited security lifting ourselves above lessor others, but pay a high cost with broken relationships. By accepting weakness, we come to understand human vulnerability.
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Definition

Imperfection: A state of incompleteness, possessing blemishes, marks, or undesirable attributes.

We need relationships

We display strength and conceal weakness, fooling ourselves with a protective shell of independence, while ignoring our need for external sources. Human connections through societies, families and groups are not merely conveniences; they are necessary for survival. We need others. No man is an Island.

Our weaknesses sometimes poke the sensitivities of others. Openness isn’t always blessed. When we stumble, our failure may upset those around us, leading to an unpleasant reaction. Ego defenses create a smooth by avoiding conflict—momentary emotional tranquility. This imaginary universe of deceptions eventually collapses, even failing the original reason for the deception. Eventually, the faulty perception of imperfection is exposed, and the vulnerable must face the inevitable, or double down with deeper deceptions.

"Human connections through societies, families and groups are not merely conveniences; they are necessary for survival."

Reality Trumps Deception

While post-modernist may shun attempts to reign in reality, we can’t ignore the existence of truths. The closer we are to reality, the more informed our decisions and the better we predict outcomes of behaviors. Just because biases and misinformation routinely haunt our psyches, doesn’t mean reality doesn’t exist and wisdom can’t be found.

Strong relationships can’t be built on false pretenses. When conflict is avoided by deception, bonds are superficial. The relationship fails to provide healing. Our true identity is not known, therefore, cannot be accepted.

Bonds are strengthened through conflict and repair. We shouldn't seek conflict. But honest relating naturally includes clashes of differences. Healthy relationships negotiate conflicts, immediately seeking repair from momentary out-of-syncness, restoring closeness. This repeated pattern when laced with good will and tender affections, builds trust. The relationship survives misattunement because history reminds that the disconnection will be repaired. In compassionate environments, we can safely expose our weaknesses, exploring deeper textures of ourself, knowing that security from a loving partner is nearby.

“The experience of affects becomes more alive, textured, and differentiated with layers of associations…” Diana Fosha (2000, Location 892)

We are all Flawed

Thomas Merton in his epic book, No Man is an Island, wrote that we can only face and accept our limitations when we live for others. “As long as we secretly adore ourselves, our own deficiencies will remain to torture us with an apparent defilement.” He continues, “We will see that we are human, like everyone else, that we all have weaknesses and deficiencies, and that these limitations of ours play a most important part in all our lives. It is because of them that we need others and others need us.” (2002, p. xxi)

Acknowledging weaknesses is essential for connection, we come to know ourselves as we reveal ourselves to others; flaws become acceptable. Acknowledgment opens us to vulnerability; but vulnerability pulls us together with others. I need you; and you need me.

Many choose escape rather than risk rejection. Their imaginations bend reality, painting a perfect existence beyond reproach, overlooking the blemishes and miss the true beauty of humanity. Those closely acquainted with reality do not wince at a freckle or a scar; they are intrigued. The texture of imperfection ignites attraction.

Fear of Imperfection

I have a close friend who was raised in a chaotic environment. He followed his father through divorce and a revolving door of live-in girlfriends. The unpredictableness of his childhood made insufficiency off limits. Imperfection is so distasteful to him that even my openness to my struggles ignites his fears. “Oh, no,” he would quickly retort, “you are really good at that.”

Self-deceptions are wondrous and seamless, creating a world where we robustly stand, uninhibited by judgmental others. Without courageous attentiveness, we disconnect from reality, reacting to feelings by living in a narrowly depicted representation of the mind. We aren’t the best driver, the best partner, or best employee. Majority of people believe they are above average in most categories. From the foundation of a bloated self, blame becomes the only reasonable explanation for failure. IT MUST BE SOMEONE ELSE’S FAULT!

We distort our view, see through biased lenses. The unpredictable chaos of complexity creates too much anxiety; we escape with structure and control. The wise, however, recognize their susceptibleness to biased delusions and repeatedly challenge and correct. We should know (and accept) we are limited, even though the precise thoughts and actions that are erroneous may be hidden; but by accepting that our views are not hard facts, we occasionally see through the smoke, grasp a truth and make needed adjustments.

Brené Brown in her gentle wisdom reminds that, "Knowledge is important, but only if we’re being kind and gentle with ourselves as we work to discover who we are. Wholeheartedness is as much about embracing our tenderness and vulnerability as it is about developing knowledge and claiming power" (2020. p. 89).

When imperfections are invisible, avoided through willful blindness, we become servants to the deceptions, motivated to keep the deception alive. We can’t constructively improve when we refuse to see the blemishes. When we open to vulnerability and see the spots, we can establish supporting connections, learn trust, and discover safe zones for retreat. From this position of strength, we grow in depth, compassion and wisdom. We become enlightened to our humanness. Our faults don’t testify of our nastiness, we, in imperfection, still deserve the beauties of life—love, security, and forgiveness.

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